Sure wish I knew!

Today was a day that not long ago felt so far away. Seniors in college used to sounds so old... but today I feel so young, with a overwhelming desire to neverrrr grow up! 

WOW.... it is senior year?!?! I have been BEYOND blessed the past three years of my life! It is probably the reason nearing the end is causing these crazy emotions. I am so terrified of it to end!

I am not sure if I will graduate on time, to be quite honest. Sure wish I knew today.

I am not sure what I will be doing in May if I do graduate. Sure wish I knew today. 

I am not sure "what i want to be when I grow up" or really, even what direction to go in my career life. Sure wish I knew today!

I am not sure (at all) how in the world I will pay off college. Sure wish I knew today.

I am not sure who I will marry, when I will marry them/meet them, how many children I will have/adopt, where I will live, how many wins Pack football will obtain, how many more parking tickets I will get, how many more college encouraged pounds I will gain, if I will ever pass spanish 201....... Sure wish I knew today! 

I am not sure which of my friends will remain my friends after college life is over. I am not sure if we will live in different states/countries as each other. Friends have come and gone so much in the past few years, and I am not sure if I am ready for it to happen again. 

CHANGE. If I could pick one word I hated the most, this is what it would be. Thing is, I hate "change", but it REALLY seems to LOVE me! I don't handle it well... and over the past three years, I have been forced to learn how, and will learn again, because... here we go, the beginning of a end to yet another chapter! 

On the first day of freshman year I had NO clue that I would be living at Disney world, having the time of my life! Seriously, was that even real life? 

On the first day of sophomore year I had NO clue I would be pledging Sigma Alpha Omega, to one day be the Vice President and have over 50 sisters that I love sooo much! 

On the first day of Junior year I had NO clue I would fall in LOVE with Africa, and go... not once... but twice.... finding much clarity from God, where my heart is! 

.... and here we are. On the first day of senior year. I have NO clue what God holds for me. If the past three years have been so eventful, I am banking on the fourth one being eventful too!... and it makes me SO excited!!!! 

It would be very easy for me to have much anxiety over all these unknowns! BUTTT  as cliche as it is... "I don't know what my future holds, but I know who holds my future!"

SOO, lets do this thing! GO PACK! 

Me on the first day of freshman year, and the first day of senior year! 

^"" For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11